Confession

I took another pregnancy test today.

Just to make sure.

It just doesn't seem real.

Besides the fact that my boobs are already getting bigger and are sore.

And I was was nauseous a couple times.

I'm pretty excited!

More on the story of me finding out soon.

Christmas posts coming tomorrow!

3 kids, a Confession, and a poll

Swayzee is SO loved. Her siblings can't get enough of her.







Why does it have to be so hard to take 3 kids picture together?

When one is looking and smiling, two others have their eyes closed.

When one is smiling, one is being super silly, and the other is smiling cheesy.

When two are smiling, one puts her hand in mouth.


I love this one though.

and this one.


and this one.
and this one.

Yes, they are sitting on my kitchen table.

Swayzee's eyes are pretty gorgeous.

This will have to do.

P.S. most of you all were so weak on my last poll. 9 votes. pathetic. I'm sure most of you have a view of some sort on the death penalty.

Take my new poll. This is going to be a whole new topic of discussion next week.

Confession & a Poll

I don't know how I feel about the death penalty.

I have been thinking about that lately, and I've been thinking about what I would want to happen to someone that hurt the most important things in my life. (My family) and I still don't know how I feel. I kind of feel like it should still be up to God.

I do feel like prison/jail should be more torturous then it is. I don't feel like prisoners should be able to do some of the things they do.

What do you think?

What is your opinion of the death penalty? Take my poll, and give opinions below.

Confession

TOTALLY THOUGHT I WAS PREGNANT AGAIN LAST WEEK

I'm not.

I will be blogging about Cali and my loves tomorrow, but I must write in my kids journals first. Nighty, night.

Confession

I'm the worst mom ever. I'm so embarrassed about this post.

Yesterday, I left Trey and Mykelle at home with Seth, and went to run errands. I went to Lakeshore, and ran in to grab a few things. After being in the store for a few minutes, I realized I left Swayzee out in the car. (In my head, I was thinking all the kids were at home with their daddy) I panicked, and sprinted outside to find her sleeping sounding in my locked car. I felt like crying, and quickly grabbed her and went back in. Worrying mostly, that people were going to see me bringing her back in, and think I was the worst person ever, and praying in thankfulness for her safety!

Who does that? I felt so terrible.

I can officially NEVER judge another mother again, because I swore I would never do that to my child.

I know, I know. Tell me what a bad mother I am.

Thursday Confessional

Sorry I've been gone. Life is crazy.

THURSDAY CONFESSIONAL

*Update: While searching for a picture on the web of JTT, I came across several sites saying he died. I may or may not have been so sad for a brief moment!

I think Justin Bieber is totally cute.

I bet he is a JTT ( Jonathan Taylor Thomas) to little girls everywhere.

A Little Bit of This, A Little Bit of That

First, we'll start off with a confession. I REALLY want to be a Motorcycle girl. I want to have long hair that blows in the wind. I picture myself taking off my helmet and shaking my hair out in the wind like in the movies! Too bad I'd be way to scared to ever learn how to drive one! I guess a scooter with have to do! :P



We celebrated my Birthday (On my Birthday) at my moms. She made us all a delicious dinner, then babysat my kids while Dave, Candice, and I went bowling. It was fun! I think I kicked all their butts, but mostly, I know I beat Seth. Sorry babe.




Next up is Fathers Day. We spent Father's Day in the Canyon with Tin Foil Dinners, and Smores. It was a good time.


Trey is so protective, and adores Swayzee!


My kids LOVE David and Candice
(Sorry its not the best picture of you guys, but look at that love in Trey's eyes.)

Mykelle continues to be a great big sister, and is so helpful.

(Since this picture was taken, Swayzee smiles all the time. Big huge grins that just make you melt. As long as you do baby talk. Lol)

Parentals.
My kids LOVE to dance. Trey is busting out some break dancing moves lately..

Swayzee Brynn had her two month check up, and weighing in at 9lbs 8oz. She is so little and cute. She was in the 15% which was a lot more than Mykelle. Mykelle was always in the 3rd percentile her first year. The doctor teases me about feeding Swayzee skim milk.

Swayzee continues to change daily. She is the BEST baby. Honestly. On occasion she will have a tummy ache, and be fussy, but that is rare. She is sleeping all through the night, and takes 4 good naps during the day. She eats ever 3 hours during the day, and is quick and efficient.

We are so blessed to have all our children, and so glad Swayzee entered our family!

Thursday Confessional

This may be my biggest confession yet!

Seth and I found out the sex of the baby at 5 months. He talked me into that morning because he knew I would be freaking out at 8 months wondering what it was. He was right. I would have. So, we decided to keep it a surprise from everyone else.

When they did the ultrasound, they were only kind of sure it was a girl. They said about 75%, so we just settled with that.

I really felt like it was a boy. Comparing the pregnancy and everything, it was like Trey's, and I just felt like it was a boy. Some people called me on it, but we "lied" WITH GOOD INTENTIONS.

Let me apologize though, because we did feel really bad by the end of the pregnancy, because everyone started asking, then it was lots of lying.

We bought a few things, but we mostly got the nursery ready! It is all completed, and I will take pictures soon.

Thanks to my friend Emily (Who also knew) for making all my baby bedding! You ROCK!

And Thank You to my sister in law Candice, who is making my matching car seat cover! ;) Love you babes!

Thursday Confessional

*I think the Babe is breech again! Dang! I cannot tell exactly what the position is, but it is not head down as I type this. I felt hiccups by my ribs today for about 4 minutes. We will see what happens at my appointment Friday.

Confession:

Seth and I have been discussing adoption. I think we are really considering it for our next, or NEXT child. We will see.

Also, I occasionally watch a Rated R movie. I watched the movie "Precious" this week. I was disturbed all day. It made me want to help Children/Teenagers even more. So sad. And like I said, disturbing.

Thursday Confessional

I can't decide if I like having two blogs. Its kind of inconvenient. So for now, I'm back here with my Confession!

I eat Snow.

Seth thinks it's gross. So do a lot of people.

I don't even care.

I ate a handful of snow last night because I was craving ice, and it was the best snow I've ever eaten. (That sounds grammatically incorrect) But anyway, it was like a shaved ice.

It was heavy, and so good.

I might go get some right now.

AND, I forgot to post a confession last week. Sorry.

My other confession is this...

I make up dance moves in my car all the time. I picture myself on a stage with some other awesome dancer, and make up dance moves to good songs in my head.

I miss doing that with my sister! We did it together a lot.

I miss her. Bad.

Thursday Confessional

*Update- I changed my commenting permissions a little bit, so I'll see how this goes, but if I'm still feeling uneasy, I am going to go private in the next few weeks. We'll see. I'm getting so many hits on my blog each day, which is great, but makes me uneasy all in the same. These people are coming from all over the place, and don't leave comments which makes it worse for me. I feel like I am "being watched"

I can't decide if I like having my blog public or not. I have been getting lots of Anonymous comments, and lots of Spam.

Don't get me wrong, I love "meeting" my anonymous readers, but I like to know who they are too. I look at lots of people's blogs I don't know, but I can't decide what to do.

I may go private, but it's such a pain!

Thursday Confessional

My favorite new word to say is "Vag"

LOL.

I think only my close friends, and my mom will laugh at this.

Fact. I used to gag at the word vagina when I was growing up. I told my mom it was such a gross word, and always called it a V-G.

Thursday Confessional

I have to hang my clothes on hangers a certain way when I hang them up. Anal. I know.

P.S. I also hate this picture. Why? If you look closely, you can see that one of my nails broke off. Pathetic? Yes.

I do love Trey in this picture though. This was before going to the Temple with my BF Jess. I'll post about this soon as well.

Thursday Confessional

Thursday Confessional

I got waxed below the belly button this week! Don't judge me. I can't see anything from my belly button down.

I also hadn't shaved my legs for a really long time before this day as well. I don't even care. Its too uncomfortable to shave.

If I hadn't waited so long, I would have had Seth do it for me. He might gag though, so I guess I could always ask my mom. Ha Ha. No seriously, my mom would really shave my legs for me. She is that cool.


I've been tagged twice, so I better get on it!

4 shows I like to watch: (it all depends on the season)

Desperate Housewives
Grey's Anatomy
Private Practice
American Idol

4 things I'm passionate about:

Our Heavenly Father and Savior Jesus Christ.
Man life is so much easier when you have the Lord in your life! I can't imagine my life without the Lord's guidance. I don't know how I survived my teenage years when I was inactive here and there. And still, I have a totally different relationship with him now then I ever have. It is amazing.

My family.
They are everything to me. I think that family is what matters most, and those are the people that will always be there. (As long as they treat you right, and the other way around) This counts for so many of my friends who I consider my family as well.

I am also really passionate about raising my kids well. I expect a lot, but I think this time and the coming years are crucial in a child's life.

Children.
They are so innocent, and wonderful. Most children anyway. JK. I love my job, and I love getting to know all the children in my life. They are all so different, and unique. Over the last 8 years, I have been blessed enough to have so many children touch my life! I honestly have the BEST job too.

Organization.
This might be lame, but I really am. My life revolves around it. I have to have to do lists, schedules, plans, etc. Oddly enough, I also like to do things spur of the moment. Just don't look at my Tupperware cupboard. ( I swear that cupboard won't stay organized for the life of me!)

I am passionate about a lot of things, but these are the first 4 I could think of at 12:30am.

4 Phrases you use frequently:
Seriously?
Are you kiddin me?
Where are you? (Seth)
I love you

4 things I have learned from the past:
To feel good, Do Good, and Be good. (I am unsure who said this quote, but I love it)

Forgiveness has a high price, but it is so worth it! Nothing feels better than letting go and truly getting over things that have once hurt you.

When Life gets hard, don't give up, because they will always get better! ( I wrote this in my journal several times as a teenager. It still makes me so emotional to this day. My senior year of High School, I finally realized this, and it changed my whole life.)

The leg press makes your legs bulky.

4 places I would love to visit:
Dominican Republic
Costa Rica
Belize (To see Naomi)
Africa

4 things I did yesterday:
Drank Chocolate milk
Made Valentine cards for Lover boy and the kids
Picked up 2 tables from Wood Connection that I LOVE
Got irritated with Seth several time, then apologized for being a big brat.

4 things I'm looking forward to:
Our anniversary get away in March
Meeting our baby, and so many things that come with that!
Warm Weather
Spending the Summer with my kids, and not having to "work"

4 things I love about winter:
Hot chocolate
Cute Boots
Sledding
Cuddling up to get warm.

4 things on my wish list:
A healthy baby
A successful year for Seth's business
Seth going back to church
Baby Gear

4 people I tag:
Courtney
Stephanie
Jaquelyn
and anyone else I don't know really well.

Holy Smokes

I feel like I haven't blogged forever! Sorry friends.

I've been really, really tired, and nauseous. I was unsure why, and assumed it was just being prego. But today, I found out that I have really low iron. I kind of knew that already, because I have accidentally (By accidentally,I mean not on purpose) turned myself into a vegetarian. Most meat just tastes so gross to me. Being pregnant made it worse, but I was like that already before getting pregnant. I stopped eating hamburger meat almost 2 years ago. (Although I did have 2 In and Out burgers last year) I still use meat for my family, and substiture pork sausage for hamburger. Since meat is the main source of iron, I am on an iron shortage.

I have had no desire to work out the last couple weeks, and haven't been myself. (Having NO energy) Looks like I will have to start taking iron supplements. And Colace my Dr. Report says. YAY for me!

And what about those skin tags? I find then creepy. I have gotten a few this pregnancy, and I swear I'm going to cut them off. They drive me crazy. That is what the Dr. said they do anyway. Gross. I don't think I could really do it.

All for a little bundle of joy.

All worth it though.

I will post tomorrow I SWEAR. (Only Sometimes though. Shhh.... Don't tell anonymous, he/she might go tell my bishop)

Also, I'll post the drawing winner!


2 Confessions since I have been so lame.....

• I feel so bad for the kids whose parents smoke in their cars, homes, etc.

• I strongly dislike that people think just because I am a SAHM that I don't have enough things to do, and would want to babysit kids all the time! No offense to anyone, I'm just sayin' everyone asks me. I don't mind if the favor is being exchanged, but lets face it, I don't trust very many people with my kids.

And NO HOLLY your kids don't count. They are my 2nd children.


August 2007

My dear friend Julie is moving to Hawaii. I'm a little heartbroken, as I am losing my Wednesday park pal (Every Wednesday in the Summer, we would meet up at the park, pack a picnic, the kid's bikes, sunscreen, and whatever else we needed to stay the whole day, and spend the enitre time talking and enjoyineg each others company.) She is so much more then my Wednesday park Pal, but I am so sad we won't have those days together this summer. I enjoyed them so much! My summer just won't be the same with out you!
Julie I realized, we have been friends for awhile now, and we really don't have very many pictures of just the 2 of us! I will post my pictures from last weekend soon though.

Thursday Confessional

This is the only photo you get. I don't feel like uploading any off the camera.

August 06. Right Before I had Trey.

I don't feel like confessing anything today.

Maybe I'll have two next week.

I do have to say that I LOVE how incredible a woman's body is. MY body. When I was getting into the shower last night, I thought to myself... man, my body is amazing. Then I called Seth in to come look. He only noticed other things (Large aereolas), so I kicked him out.

The ability to carry a child is phenomenal. Seth and I have admired my growing belly the last two nights, and watched it literally move in every direction.

This baby won't stop moving. But I love it. I can feel all kinds of body parts sticking out. I just don't know what they are exactly. They feel like bones.

My belly has never had this shape before. This baby is growing straight out, and super, super low. I can barely bend over.

Have I mentioned I LOVE being pregnant? Even when I can't breath after trying to get my shoes on. (Yeah, I already can't get my shoes on at 7 months. Pathetic.)

Appointment Four

THIS BEAUTIFUL BUMP JUST KEEPS GETTING BIGGER, AND BIGGER! I AM LOVING IT!

Today 26wks. 6 Days

My doctors appointment today went great! We reviewed my Ultrasound, and she does not want to change my due date at all. She thinks the baby is still big. Well, big enough not to change the due date. I measured 27 weeks.

My doctor told me I was the cutest pregnant girl, and a little Fashionista today. Instead of correcting her, I just smiled and said thank you! Ha Ha. (Candice don't worry, this isn't your hat. I bought one for me too! Not that you would care if I wore it!)

I have to go in next week to do my glucose testing. I was supposed to do it today, but she was running behind, and I had to get back home.

I mentioned to her how low the baby was, and she mentioned being concerned about it being breech. It doesn't worry me yet, but I hope it corrects itself. I don't know what exactly the baby being low has to do with the baby being breech. I think I'll look into it.

Today, I felt EXTREMELY ANXIOUS. I felt like 3 months is going to take forever to meet this baby. I know it will go by fast, but it will take forever all in the same. I don't know how people can not find out the sex of the baby. It is hard!

I really feel fantastic most days, but I am getting to the sleepless nights. My back is starting to hurt so bad at night, and I wake up all night long to switch sides. I am so sick of sleeping on my sides! Other than that, I feel great! :)

26 Weeks
Mykelle took this picture. I guess she thought it looked better with my head cut off :)

Then my kids wanted a belly picture too. Cute huh? Notice Kel's chipmunk in the shot.
25 Weeks
Going out on a hot date. With my sexy husband. And my 2 adorable kids.

24 Weeks

On my way to work out!

One of the MANY Hair ties I made. Thanks for teaching me how to make them Emily! I love them!

Just a few pictures that I found on my camera! Kids are so cute! My kids love taking pictures!
Mykelle being so creative with Trey's train tracks! Notice that our floors upstairs STILL have no carpet.
This week for Family Night, we started a dinner journal. I kind of got the idea from Family Fun magazine, we just changed it a little.

Every night at dinner, we talk about our favorite thing of the day. We have since I can remember. It's one of my favorite rituals. Some days, it is just little things like, Seth usually says he is so happy to be home with his family. Almost every night. Mykelle almost always says going to school, or playing with her guniea pig.(Did I mention we got another one form my parents for Christmas?) Trey usually says he liked playing trains, or playing with his mom and sister. Mine changes daily, but there are those days when we all say something different. When we feel so happy that we don't want to forget what we did that day. so, we decided to start keeping track of all of them. Not every night, but every night we sit down together at the table for dinner. Which is usually 5 nights a week.

I also write what we ate for dinner. I don't know why, but I think it might be fun to look back on. I'm odd like that. I love looking back at things. I still remember things we ate as a family growing up. Shepherd's pie, ham fried rice, beans and corn bread, Roast, and my mom's potato cheese soup.

Anyway, that is what we did. We read about how important writing in journals are, then after dinner, we wrote in our own journals, and each others. I wrote Seth a really sweet, admiring note, and he wrote in mine, " I love you. Lets do it." It was sweet. Isn't he such a romantic? Oh, I love him!

THURSDAY CONFESSIONAL:

I looked at the scale today at the doctors! I've gained 13 pounds. I smiled though. My body feels strong! I feel like I have this incredible body that is going to give birth to a baby. I asked Seth if he can tell I gained 13 pounds, and he said kind of. I laughed, then I asked where. He said in my butt. LOL. Baby got back. I just DON'T want to get a double chin again!

I also must confess, that I like having a goal to get my body back in shape after each baby, and I like working towards getting my six pack back each time.

Thursday Confessional

I have a serious flaw.

It comes with my personality of always being Happy.

Sometimes I am so happy, that it is hard for me to deal with things that would make me less than that, and I just stay "comfortable".

Well, not with everything. Most things can't bring me down. I'm just meaning when it comes to my marriage.

I find myself not fighting hard enough for things that I want, and most importantly deserve. But that feels selfish sometimes.

This week it hasn't felt selfish (and it really never should), and I have felt.....not so happy on the inside.

Thursday Confessional

New Year's Eve. Going out with Chris and Ailee. 6 months.

Sometimes I am afraid to say how happy I am, or how much I love my life, because I am afraid something bad will happen.

What we've been up to...

Oh man, I have SO much to blog about. AND, I will within the week. Most importantly, I have had the best, most busy, two weeks. I wouldn't really say I had a break, but it has been so much fun. Why, you ask?

Seth took two weeks off of work. I love him. I love being with him. I love not arguing about him being late. (Which by the way, he totally made up for last time. Who says gifts don't make up for things? Ha. Well, they don't, but I love my new blackberry.) It just shows the stress that jobs bring into families. We didn't argue once. I'm proud of that if you haven't noticed.

So, what have we been up to?

BEFORE:

(This is before we painted, Seth had just put up the chair rail.)

AFTER:

Man he is a stud. Dirty, but Studly.

I'm not sure how the bedrooms will work yet. It will all depend on the gender of Baby, and we also don't know how the bunk beds are going to go. (YES, Santa brought some amazing bunk beds) They sure seem high, and Mykelle has a pretty serious case of sleep walking that has recently worsened, so that is a little scary. We will see what happens with them. They can be separated into separate twin beds if we need. The smaller bedroom is pink, so if the baby is a girl, we plan on making that her room, and Trey and Mykelle will still share. If it is a boy, then Trey and Baby boy will share the big room, and Mykelle can have her own.

Trey's favorite color is pink, so he REALLY wants the pink room. He keeps saying it is for his baby though. I love that pink is his favorite color. The bedrooms look so cute though, and made a huge change in that level of the house. We just need to add new carpet, and finally finish our bedroom and bathroom. (Which I am so excited about! )

We had about 5 days of really long nights. I'm talking 3 and 4 in the morning. Prep work sucks, and painting trim sucks. Once we started painting we finished it in about half a day. Well, actually, we were up until 4 this morning, but IT'S FINISHED!

Seth made our chair rail a little thicker, because I like that look better, and he routed a design on the top and by the windows.I really wanted bead board, but it is so expensive. I am so thankful for a husband that knows how to do anything and everything, and for a husband that GETS THE JOB DONE!

MY THURSDAY CONFESSIONAL IS THIS:

i have recently become addicted to interior design.

Well, I have always loved it, but don't want to waste money on expensive things that I love. But recently, blame it on HGTV, I have become OBSESSED. I mean, staying up all night surfing the Internet, looking at interior design blogs, looking over tons and tons of images of baby nurseries, kids bedrooms, and bedrooms in general. I have been looking over tons of images of DIY projects, and my brain won't quit working to rest. I stayed up past 5am this morning, because it is so addicting. I have so many ideas, and it is making me CRAZY.

This year, maybe some of last year, my style has changed. With clothing, furniture, and decor. I love contemporary, and modern styles for the home, and can't decide what my exact style is. So, it is modern contemporary. I just add whatever to my home that I love, but my dream home is that style. SOME DAY.

The good news about this newest addiction is that I have about 20 new blogs that I love and will share with all of you when I have the time. This has already been a longer post then intended.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!WELCOME TWENTY TEN!

and I have a lot to cover on this subject as well.

P.S. I'll be here on Saturday morning, Getting Endowed.